2 November 2025

I went for my first ever therapy session today, and it was hypnotherapy. But to limit it to just “hypnotherapy” would be a disservice to what I experienced. Lorraine does a lot of subconscious and energy work as well. 

The session started with little check-in on my state of the moment and to see what I am looking for out of today’s session. When I filled out the pre-session form there were definitely many MANY layers and I think what I wanted to work through was rather packed and complex. We did try to pinpoint what the focus of the session should be, but then it was difficult for me to find the exact thing. At some point, there was some emotional release triggered – i started tearing up – so we managed to narrow down a little bit to the questions of “am I asking too much from life? do I even deserve this?”

Then we started going into deep meditation. It was easy for me to go into a meditative state but hard for me to navigate the different layers (?). I kept tethering between my conscious mind and my subconscious, only maybe about 10-15 minutes later (i don’t know the actual time haha) i managed to let go and just release “control” and any expectations; that’s probably when we managed to go deeper. 

The very first thing Lorraine asked me was if anything was coming up or surfacing. I was feeling a bit strange because it was the first time i had to speak in a meditative state. I couldn’t rly feel much yet, and was still battling my conscious mind, unsure if anything coming up is just my thoughts/imagination. But i tried to lean into my intuition and said “purple lotus”, which was what i saw vaguely, dancing around.

Then at some point, some pain in my right knee surfaced and i verbalised this to Lorraine. She asked me what it feels like, what it looks like, and asked what is it trying to tell me. 

I cannot remember now what i replied, but after some time it went away by itself 😯

There was a part about imagining growing roots from our spine, reaching all the way down, deep into earth. Imagine that i am part of the oldest ancient tree, warm in the soil, fully embraced by earth. In that imagery/scenery, i felt warm and supported and loved. I also somehow saw a figure of a glowing old bearded man (around 50% similarity to the pic below) and it gave me a feeling of calmness and wisdom. 

Lorraine said she sensed that he is my spirit guide (one of…).

He looks like… maybe Lao Tzu?

(To be continued)